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i want to try to do at least one good habit every month to six weeks because that's apparntly how long it takes for a habit to really stick and be less work to maintain!
so some habits i want to establish, daily, in 2019

- meditate
- yoga/stretching
- rise early
- be more focused
- whittle down idle phone time
- write daily
- don't pick skin
- really clean out space - donate, re-purpose, reduce
- more self-care

happy 2019 everyone!!! here's hoping it's better than 2018

the outline for one of the things im writing rn has "ends with him sitting alone ... feeling the room around him very empty and cold and devoid of life, and crying" as the last bullet point
so you could say im living large

also the colourpop sale rn is CRAZY but i want to try their foundation and i dont want to buy it til i get matched to a fenty foundation at sephora so i have something to compare to to get my right shade :"T hmmmm maybe i'll brave the mall tomorrow and go to the sephora there, maybe get some samples of what they say looks like about my shade, and then just get like a new eyeliner or mascara or something basic so i can get those samples
that way i can test it out, see what works best, and then use that to pick my shade on colourpop....yes
god im obsessed with the foxes jelly eyeshadow though, it's SO pretty
and i'm getting the liquid lip flitter because its a decent dupe for my favorite lipstick that i got from an indie brand that hasn't restocked in months

......WAIT I JUST CHECKED AND THEY RESTOCKED.....big new years makeup order? :")) (it's this one if anyone's curious)

i finished my finals on thursday!!! the last one was real, real bad and i spent a lot of it panicking, felt a lot better when the prof called 20 min left, i looked up in panic, and made eye contact with my friend who looked equally horrified
its less stressful when you know people you lov n know are smart are also like "fuck!!!!!!!!"
we were texting in the studying leadup to it and i think the funniest thing i ever said was friend said "how are you feeling about this exam?" and i said "welcome to Big Fuck, may i take your order"

so welcome to Big Fuck yall